constant breeze

there is a total constant breeze tonight. What do I hear? DJed by tortoise, a motorcycle, a train about 20 minutes ago (it's nice to know that I have trains around here...obviously grew up with them every 90 or 300 seconds), katydids, and finally random beetles whamming their faces into the facade o' siding. I've been meaning to get back to this. These are my best moments (I want to say that this is half true....these are moments where I reflect; reflect and realize that maybe I understand repetition. Maybe I understand that random ashtray on your porch. Maybe I'm starting to get "life". It's a weak maybe. I'm in the mood for some Tom Petty. Scratch that....perhaps I'm in the mood for being in a place where hearing the sound of trains gave me their start. In fact, I'm not sure I can remember the start of the trains without putting myself into another zone....the second coming phase of my life. If that's the second coming by the way, then I'm on my 9th coming phase, because it's been ages since I was at that second coming. No seriously, that's odd that I can't remember the trains from where they started. I can remember riding them and doing stuff on the tracks...I can remember other noted moments via bike and car, but I can't remember it from where I started. I can only remember random moments close up and those from your back porch. Odd in a way. It's sad to think this is our only life. I mean that in the best possible way. I mean that in the way that there is so much that happens out there for people where out there equals the Earth and the world and the uni or multiverse, as in people like the random guy who posted on my blog that one time telling me he's still out there....people like mother theresa and ghandi [those two names come to my mind by chance] {yeah that's right random guy, I put you up there with those people, feel special and no disrespect from my prior message}, people like those that wear chaps, seriously who does that??? hahaha. That's funny. But while this life rocks ass and I love it, it's crazy to think this is the only one. I want to know that I'll feel these same emotions in my next and my other....I know I always say this, but perhaps I should exit these parenthesis???) I also hear lots of crickets. How are crickets nocturnal, when I see them during the day? Same with something else I recently thought of but can't recall, how are they nocturnal? really?

20 seconds on the microwave. This guy just got his computer stolen. Haha!

Jun 15, 2010

would you rather be able to float (not fly) up with the clouds - you wouldn't get hurt, and you could do it every week but only once a week - or would you rather be able to force more out of your brain, whatever that means...for instance if we use 30% of our brains, you could be given the ability to use up to around 45%?

hey random scary guy

regroup, repave, rally...

tomorrow. Thanks

hey there 'Moon' is a good movie

are you sure my cat is not an alien...? Is there a camera in there?

I still have my work pants on.

Try to look up...on a cool calm night. We are tiny. Fyi only.

is "my normal" different than other people's daily "normal" feeling* more on this later...(I hope to BLOG on this in the future)

I do so believe I'd like to see Kobe grow his hair out.

if I grew a mullet (which I think I can't possibly do) I believe that fascination might last maybe 1-4 days max...then I'd feel dumb. Not sure if more power to those who do, or more power against?

adrenaline = scared = pumpy, right? that is a good feeling. I'd like to know if my ancestors thrived on scaring themselves. Specifically did they do this in 1890 on my deck with a noisy woods near by?

Glad for Lycopine, happier for music that is found.

replies to this = more frequent entries. Let me know you are out there.

Lips

Do you realize; that song has the greatest lyrics, but also depressing. Here are some of them:

do you realize.....that you have the most beautiful face

do you realize we're floating in space

do you realize that happiness makes you cry

do you realize......that everyone you know......someday.......will die. and instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know you realize life goes fast, it'a hard to make the good things last, you realize the sun doesn't go down, it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round.

WOW, seriously. Now read it again and realize there is beauty, we're floating, and the sun is crazy hot and won't stop shining (hopefully) even when we are sleeping. Have a good night.

no rain

seriously, there are about 4 common place things that I'm used to being a certain way/place that I noted were moved/off. Is there someone in my house?

sit home and rot

the title of this actually only pertains to the song I'm listening to, but it brings up a good point. A microscopic point. If we are only one person, in a timeline that has been sort of determined but honestly not really, in a species that only exists on this planet, in a planet filled multiverse....then what ripple can we make? What's the point? I don't say that in a negative way, just merely wondering how tiny we are in the scheme of things? (side note, I just did a quick spell check because I spelled scheme wrong and I knew it....and this program doesn't know the word multiverse. Funny, yet not quite discovered yet....however, inevitably true eventually).

So our size....back to that. I like to look at the macro side of life.....enjoy bugs, tiny details, observations and life on a level that most shrug off. But even if you zoomed in to the higher details, rather larger details that are me, my family, my vision, heck even celebrities....none of it matters that much in the grand scheme of things. It's kinda depressing. You live every day, worrying, wondering (a whole lot of it), wishing, etc....but what for? I don't mean to be that depressing guy with that depressing thought....I'm just saying it literally. Funny thing is, I think this now but tomorrow I will be pondering over some emotion that really doesn't add up in the grand scheme of things. Some peptide revolving around my hypothalamus that doesn't have any effect on anything but that particular moment....

I was staring at Betelgeuse and Rigel tonight http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Orion_constellation_map.png and thinking about how they completely dwarf our sun, much less us....and then thinking back, nearly zooming in on myself, and I realize WTF. My emotions actually go whack during moments like this...should I think YEAH THIS IS AWESOME!!! or rather 'holy crap....life is so short, enjoy as much as you can while you are around'?

I also feel wonderful.....but I nearly can stand it, all at the same time. What's one tiny human brain supposed to think?

I think I just realized something this very moment. My thoughts won't go on.......but those thoughts of others (which could be effected by me) will go on. Powerful.

Right now I can say, I love everything. No lie.....also, I wonder about everything that ever existed.

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