constant breeze

there is a total constant breeze tonight. What do I hear? DJed by tortoise, a motorcycle, a train about 20 minutes ago (it's nice to know that I have trains around here...obviously grew up with them every 90 or 300 seconds), katydids, and finally random beetles whamming their faces into the facade o' siding. I've been meaning to get back to this. These are my best moments (I want to say that this is half true....these are moments where I reflect; reflect and realize that maybe I understand repetition. Maybe I understand that random ashtray on your porch. Maybe I'm starting to get "life". It's a weak maybe. I'm in the mood for some Tom Petty. Scratch that....perhaps I'm in the mood for being in a place where hearing the sound of trains gave me their start. In fact, I'm not sure I can remember the start of the trains without putting myself into another zone....the second coming phase of my life. If that's the second coming by the way, then I'm on my 9th coming phase, because it's been ages since I was at that second coming. No seriously, that's odd that I can't remember the trains from where they started. I can remember riding them and doing stuff on the tracks...I can remember other noted moments via bike and car, but I can't remember it from where I started. I can only remember random moments close up and those from your back porch. Odd in a way. It's sad to think this is our only life. I mean that in the best possible way. I mean that in the way that there is so much that happens out there for people where out there equals the Earth and the world and the uni or multiverse, as in people like the random guy who posted on my blog that one time telling me he's still out there....people like mother theresa and ghandi [those two names come to my mind by chance] {yeah that's right random guy, I put you up there with those people, feel special and no disrespect from my prior message}, people like those that wear chaps, seriously who does that??? hahaha. That's funny. But while this life rocks ass and I love it, it's crazy to think this is the only one. I want to know that I'll feel these same emotions in my next and my other....I know I always say this, but perhaps I should exit these parenthesis???) I also hear lots of crickets. How are crickets nocturnal, when I see them during the day? Same with something else I recently thought of but can't recall, how are they nocturnal? really?

20 seconds on the microwave. This guy just got his computer stolen. Haha!

Jun 15, 2010

would you rather be able to float (not fly) up with the clouds - you wouldn't get hurt, and you could do it every week but only once a week - or would you rather be able to force more out of your brain, whatever that means...for instance if we use 30% of our brains, you could be given the ability to use up to around 45%?

hey random scary guy

regroup, repave, rally...

tomorrow. Thanks

hey there 'Moon' is a good movie

are you sure my cat is not an alien...? Is there a camera in there?

I still have my work pants on.

Try to look up...on a cool calm night. We are tiny. Fyi only.

is "my normal" different than other people's daily "normal" feeling* more on this later...(I hope to BLOG on this in the future)

I do so believe I'd like to see Kobe grow his hair out.

if I grew a mullet (which I think I can't possibly do) I believe that fascination might last maybe 1-4 days max...then I'd feel dumb. Not sure if more power to those who do, or more power against?

adrenaline = scared = pumpy, right? that is a good feeling. I'd like to know if my ancestors thrived on scaring themselves. Specifically did they do this in 1890 on my deck with a noisy woods near by?

Glad for Lycopine, happier for music that is found.

replies to this = more frequent entries. Let me know you are out there.

Lips

Do you realize; that song has the greatest lyrics, but also depressing. Here are some of them:

do you realize.....that you have the most beautiful face

do you realize we're floating in space

do you realize that happiness makes you cry

do you realize......that everyone you know......someday.......will die. and instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know you realize life goes fast, it'a hard to make the good things last, you realize the sun doesn't go down, it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round.

WOW, seriously. Now read it again and realize there is beauty, we're floating, and the sun is crazy hot and won't stop shining (hopefully) even when we are sleeping. Have a good night.

no rain

seriously, there are about 4 common place things that I'm used to being a certain way/place that I noted were moved/off. Is there someone in my house?

sit home and rot

the title of this actually only pertains to the song I'm listening to, but it brings up a good point. A microscopic point. If we are only one person, in a timeline that has been sort of determined but honestly not really, in a species that only exists on this planet, in a planet filled multiverse....then what ripple can we make? What's the point? I don't say that in a negative way, just merely wondering how tiny we are in the scheme of things? (side note, I just did a quick spell check because I spelled scheme wrong and I knew it....and this program doesn't know the word multiverse. Funny, yet not quite discovered yet....however, inevitably true eventually).

So our size....back to that. I like to look at the macro side of life.....enjoy bugs, tiny details, observations and life on a level that most shrug off. But even if you zoomed in to the higher details, rather larger details that are me, my family, my vision, heck even celebrities....none of it matters that much in the grand scheme of things. It's kinda depressing. You live every day, worrying, wondering (a whole lot of it), wishing, etc....but what for? I don't mean to be that depressing guy with that depressing thought....I'm just saying it literally. Funny thing is, I think this now but tomorrow I will be pondering over some emotion that really doesn't add up in the grand scheme of things. Some peptide revolving around my hypothalamus that doesn't have any effect on anything but that particular moment....

I was staring at Betelgeuse and Rigel tonight http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Orion_constellation_map.png and thinking about how they completely dwarf our sun, much less us....and then thinking back, nearly zooming in on myself, and I realize WTF. My emotions actually go whack during moments like this...should I think YEAH THIS IS AWESOME!!! or rather 'holy crap....life is so short, enjoy as much as you can while you are around'?

I also feel wonderful.....but I nearly can stand it, all at the same time. What's one tiny human brain supposed to think?

I think I just realized something this very moment. My thoughts won't go on.......but those thoughts of others (which could be effected by me) will go on. Powerful.

Right now I can say, I love everything. No lie.....also, I wonder about everything that ever existed.

http://www.freeway-youth.co.za/Portals/0/Moving%20Graphics/Universe.gif

been thinking....

I recently watched a depressing war movie that was seemingly very realistic (The Hurt Locker - good movie overall!). At least it was portrayed in what seems like a realistic way to me anyway - also I recently watched a documentary on Meth drug addicts living on the streets of NY. By the end of both of these movies I was left feeling that life is really good. To cherish what you have. Overall for me, it's really ashame that I cannot remember this everyday. Maybe a tattoo on my finger saying "remember that one movie" will help me focus and cherish. It's not that I don't cherish life and what is around me, it's just that I believe I take the good things in life for granted. Holler!

if...

if you could be awake always, without having to suffer from lack of sleep or other health issues....would you? It's a tough call for me, as my wife can probably attest to, but I like both dreaming and being awake so much that I'm not sure I could make a choice here. However, with our limited time on Earth I might pick part A (staying awake) because I'd hope that death is a long part B (dreaming).

Keep it real

A+ movie....

okay, for all of you that have followed my bizarre route to good movies and have liked my previous recommendations (you know who you are), you have to check out this 1994 Italian winner - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0109592/


This is no joke people, if you have an open mind and liked my other recommendations that were a bit off the wall (Wickerman, Meet the Feebles, etc.) - this movie is for you. Actually, the Wickerman and Meet the Feebles, among others, might even be a bit too much for some while this movie has something for everyone. Sure it's a zombie movie, but it is also a bizarre dark comedy and a love story with great cinematography and imagery. The zombie part is actually almost behind the scenes theme-wise - though remaining important to the plot - it is more of an undertone and way of life for the main character(s). Dellamorte Dellamore (aka the Cemetery Man) ranks #38 on my all-time list, just below the Last of the Mohicans and just above the Godfather part I and Deadbeat at Dawn.


I recommend reading the user reviews on the IMDB sight, they are more poetic than I. Still, go rent it already.....

hi there friend

n;>> Hey Mel, how's it going?


Not too bad, but I've been thinking about things that are beyond me, fathoming almost. Not sure how to handle these items.


n;>> Well, like what?


Like intimate noises for instance, and how if you listen harder you hear more and more of what you previously couldn't hear when you weren't listening fully. Stuff like depths also...how big does it go down - the ocean? What's up with the things they found a long time ago that weren't discovered yet? Like that compass navigation astronomical calculator device thingy found on that ship buried deep below sea which was supposed to have been 1,000 years ahead of it's time.

n;>> Oh, you mean the Antikythera mechanism?


Yes, that's what I'm referring to. Those types of things - items that totally warp reality for those that take time to think about it versus the norm....those things make me wonder harder than I've ever wondered.


n;>> Well, I hear what you're saying. I guess I've thought about stuff like that too. I often wonder more about what's up with the pyramids, particular wonderment focuses on what happened.... - what makes them so special and unique? Meaning, if there really is something going on at they pyramids why can't they figure it out for real instead of speculate? What could possibly be going on to have made them and did they have help? If it all were to end tomorrow and the pyramids had a secret about them, how would we ever know? In many years later, new lifers with brains which evolved (after our kind has been destroyed, probably by ourselves with our own advancements), when these new people venture upon the Earth (thanks to single celled organism development and evolution) they'd probably think that it would have been odd that we didn't figure more out about the pyramids. That the risk of ultimate chaos or at least potential chaos, from the items that are known and proven but yet hidden, would have served well to be displayed for all to know and study about the pyramids.


Yeah, I heard that bro

cooler?

what would be cooler? Trent Reznor doing a horror movie soundtrack, having a jet pack that only worked for about 10 minutes and needed 40 days of charging between uses (basically it's cool, but you can only use it sparingly), or having marsupial pouches?

What happened? C-

The Happening sucked. Big time. Sorry Andy for dissing you about it. I now admit you were right. Seriously, could the acting be worse in this movie?


"Oh darn, Rodriguez fell from the building. Holy gosh, so did Bob. What ever can we do? Oh man. Oh man. I feel not good. I are good actor." Even Marky Mark and Leguizamo, and Zooey for that matter were straight horrible. HORRIBLE I say. I guess M. Night told them to act as pedestrian as possible, and by that he meant - just don't act at all, in fact make it bad - really bad. It was so bad it didn't even seem like how people would act in real life. That guy that took them to the green house was odd, which is what I think he was supposed to be, but he couldn't act to save his life either. I honestly don't understand this approach.....at all???


I have loved every other M. Night movie I've seen - even The Village, which many people thwarted. In fact, on my top 161 movies list I have The Village listed at 39, Signs at 55, and Unbreakable at 124. Yeah, I'm not sure where Sixth Sense falls. Sure it was good, but I can't stand the hype on that one. It is on the "pending list" - to be added at a later time.


The ONLY cool thing about this movie was the way peeps were offing themselves. Dammit M. Night, you now have me strayed from your good graces. Damn! The last 4 movies prior to watching this one were WAY better: the Brood (1979), Deadbeat at Dawn, White Boyz, and Eraserhead. (I actually didn't include Boondock Saints - I saw this again and also didn't get the hype. It's my second time watching as I wanted to see if it got better and the answer is no. I also didn't include the 2007 version of April Fool's Day or 21 with Kevin Spacey. Both movies sucked).

who'd and what'd

who'd you rather be (assuming you are a guy): a surfer dude from CA, James Franco, or yourself?

TMBG

honestly, as I stood there last night - mesmerized and in awe - wishing the evening would never end.....I realized the make believe world They Might Be Giants has created.....the happy go lucky fun zone they've poured into all of us.....just makes this world grand - so much so that I got an overwhelming feeling during the night that it is okay to bring kids into this crazy world. THEY, literally, make it a happy world worth raising kids in. If you don't know what I am talking about, you need to get their albums and also some kids.